Some Days I Feel Like I Haven't Accomplished Much and Then I List Down What I've Done

 

The last few months is 2 steps forwards and 1 step back.  

Since June we have dealt with Aunt in hospital, letting a co-educator go, interviewing and asking a new educator to join us, Aunt having spinal surgery, going into sepsis, getting Covid, radiation, immunotherapy, hepatitis from IMTherapy, steroids putting sugars to extreme highs, flu, back to hospital, severe enemia, losing all the little bit of mobility she had gained, and now back in rehab.  

I've dealt with her bills, insurance, therapies, appointments, cleaning out her house and having it professional deep cleaned, selling her house, storing her belongings, and her taxes.  Plus being her biggest cheerleader.  Meeting with doctors and lawyers. 

Since November we have dealt with Pops having a horrible infection (sepsis as well) ICU for 10 days, IV Drugs at home for 6 weeks, surgery, recover, more infection, another surgery.  Now biopsy, endoscopy and colonsocopy.  Visiting nurses, doctors appointments.  Cheerleading.  Reprimanding too.  Being so sick hasn't slowed down his stubborn streak. 

DD moved back home to help, now she is starting new job, looking for housing.  Got her taxes done too. 

DS is still with us.  Doing beautifully in her professional life.  

DM is so patient with my lack of attention.  IF DS wasn't here, I would be losing my mind. 

DH is also patient, with the chaos our homelife has become.   In trying to get all the elders paperwork in order I fall behind in ours.  I sometimes start to fear what our future will be like.  I don't want to think about a future without him. 

A very dear friend died.  Of his own doing.  I'm still broken about that.  He had already withdrawn from our family a few years ago.  Then from his children, then from his Father and Sister.  I think of him everyday, what we were as children, then as adults.  

Businesses are ok.  Studio holding it's own.  Antique businesses not so much, in this faulty economy. 

I.E. today I reworked out numbers for our taxes, Did paperwork for Aunt, sent it to her insurance company, spoke with housing locally for frail elderly seniors to get her on a wait list (if she can become mobile again) did research, made soup, bed, tidied up, filed papers.  Ordered some things from local Italian shop for Sunday at DH request. All before heading to the studio.  

While at the studio, I replaced a bridge, tuned 3 outside instruments, returned phone calls, met with a co-educator and  gave 10 lessons. 

Taking showers and driving from place to place is my calm time.